Its a New Year – duhh

…..Deep breath……Yea, its been since July since Ive blogged – buuuuuuut

One of my New Years Resolutions was to resurrect this blog with at least one new post a week. For starters, I do have alot to say, but since I am left without a physical voice at least half the year, this is where Im forced to ‘say’ it.

So, here are my scattered thoughts on wrapping up 2014 and looking forward to 2015.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS?

Anyway, as of today (January 4, 2015) I am 669 days smoke free because I switched to ecigs. My health has somewhat improved….I havent had to use the rescue inhaler for quite some time.

Obviously vaping isnt going to improve actual chronic conditions….and the act of quitting combustable tobacco takes time to actually show improvement – and there is reducing your mg of nicotine (Ive gone from 24 mg to 0-3 mg).

Ive increased how much water I drink and only drink a cup of hot green tea a day (I used to be able to down a pot of coffee plus drink sodas all day).

I also spent my Christmas week completely news free. Granted that wasnt exactly a New Years resolution but it was something I needed to do for my own sanity. I believe that may turn into a tradition -depending on the severity of what is going on in the world, of course.

I cleaned up alot of my social media feeds. This covers removing people I dont speak to, inactive accounts, and just otherwise negative folks. I have also kept my exposure to these social networks to a minimum, which actually has made my life alot more peaceful.

REALIZATIONS

2015 was also the year I found out who my real friends are and just how fake others have been.

See-when you have a chronic illness, and your health deteriorates, and you cant travel or even get out of your house – you dont expect your friends to ‘trade’ you in for another person who can do those things. Real friends just dont abandon you like that…..they just dont leave you hang. And they certainly dont just stop talking to you. So goodbye to those people.

CHANGE?

At the end of last year, I asked people to send me suggestions of things that I might have missed…..(music videos, youtube channels, podcasts, Netflix shows/movies) So, everyday in 2015, I will be stepping outside my ‘comfort zone’ to watch things I would have otherwise missed. I also suggest you do the same. Its already been eye opening as to what I have missed simply because it wasnt in my radar.

This is also going to be a year of personal change. Because of my illness, Ive been very inactive this year. I wont go into the details in this post as to what has been going on, but its been difficult to go more than 10 minutes from my home without huge issues. I will be setting a weekly goal to ‘move my body’ so I get in some resemblence of normalcy back in my life.

A continuing goal of mine is to reduce the clutter. This includes clothing you wont ever wear again, papers you wont need, and other belongings that you just dont love/need/want. I personally donate what I can, recycling what I can and tossing the rest.

LETS WRAP THIS UP NOW, SHALL WE?

I have other goals for this year, but those will be mentioned in other posts where they will make a little more sense. But thanks for reading and I hope you stick around for 2015!

 

Lets Pretend we are family

Several years ago (almost 15) I adopted a family…..well, not legally of course, but we sorta attached ourselves to each other in similar ways that real families do.

What I gained from this family was truly the experience I have been missing out on, until I made the mistake of introducing them to my boyfriends parents. I dont mind that they got along, and chatted amongst themselves when gathered at my house for my childrens birthday parties. In fact, I welcomed it because I was doing other things and could not entertain them myself.

The mistake was that they got themselves invited down to our ‘oasis’ of sorts. Next thing we know, every single event that occurs, my boyfriends parents are there.

This irks me to no end…..I mean, first, why do they want to interfere in our lives to the point where I feel that I can no longer be relaxed amongst my friends? Secondly, dont they understand that these people are who I consider my family?

What irks me even more is that when we called my friends to explain why we werent going down there, they cannot understand why we dont want to see my boyfriends family every time we go down there. I now feel like theyve chosen to remain friends with his parents and ignore us.

Quite honestly, Im incredibly upset about this. I feel as though our feelings should be understood and with the exception of the upcoming event, be honored. Not everyone is thrilled by seeing people you quite honestly dont have anything in common with being involved in events that shouldnt even be known to them.

And Im more than a little upset about the fact that his parents USED to go out on New Years Eve, but now just have to be where we spend ours….yea, thanks for ruining MY FAMILYS tradition. Just keep overstepping those bounds over and over and over…….and keep wondering why my children and I dont like you people!

And to my friends who I considered family…..thats ok. You have every right to invite whoever you want to your house, but I wont be attending anything else that obviously requires parental chaperones.